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Exacting self-examination should promote more realistic expectations in politics and life generally. If we are more honest with ourselves, we may understand that we are not trying to change the world but rather, ourselves…

self-knowledge“It may justly be concluded that it is not easy for a man to know himself,” said Dr. Johnson, “for wheresoever we turn our view, we shall find almost all with whom we converse so nearly as to judge of their sentiments, indulging more favorable conceptions of their own virtue than they have been able to impress upon others, and congratulating themselves upon degrees of excellence.”*

Why is it not easy? Because often a man does not want to know himself, for if he did he’d be pained by the knowledge of what he is: selfish, dishonest, delusional, envious, hypocritical, and more.

The mind is essentially functional; its primary purpose is not to arrive at truth, but to enable us to pursue our ends, which are largely practical in nature. We therefore believe things not so much because they are true as because they make us feel a certain way. And though truth is not determined by feeling, human value is. It is true that the earth orbits sun, but the value of that natural fact—so central to human life—is affective, passional, an affair of the heart. And so it is with everything. Reason is very weak compared to the imagination, which is not only more powerful than it, but comprehends the affects besides. It is no wonder, then, that myth and allegory long preceded philosophy and science. And the mind functioning to aid survival and well-being, it is no wonder either that we spend a good deal of time in willful ignorance: getting on in life, our main activity, depends on believing some things rather than others, to which mere truth is subordinated. As Conrad wrote in Victory, “every age is fed on illusions, lest men should renounce life early and the human race come to an end.” In fact, since illusions, lies, errors, and the like are often most effective when it comes to advancing our largely selfish interests, it is merely fitting that throughout much of life we know neither ourselves nor others, all while misperceiving experience (often deliberately) to that end.

The tendency to an unjustly favorable self-conception, seemingly universal, is frequently accompanied by a tendency hardly less prevalent, whereby we attribute our problems to the flaws and failings of others. Because we conceive of ourselves as being more moral, more just, and, in a word, better than we really are, we naturally blame others—especially those in positions of power and authority—for life’s evils and injustices: not recognizing when misfortune is self-caused, or the instances in which we choose to do wrong not because of any structural or external influence, but simply for the sake of our own gain or gratification. It is usually instructive to observe two people argue their respective “sides” during a dispute. In most cases, each person, whether consciously or no, will distort the actual events in order to suit his purposes. Neither will show much regard for objectivity or justice. In time, one notices that this is the normal course of things, so great, and greatly deceiving, is our self-love.

It is easy to be vexed by the extreme disparity of earnings between workers and CEOs, by the greed inherent in this and in our corrupt economic order generally. It is hard to do anything about this sort of thing, because it stems, ultimately, from the deeply self-interested character of human nature itself, which, once placed in certain circumstances, simply realizes its strongest inclinations. Thus reason deftly furnishes ad hoc justifications for what people want. The moral character of a thing may be only partially acknowledged, if at all, and it takes only moments for the mind to interpret behavior in a false but agreeable light. Nor will the memory necessarily impel one to confront the ignored truth. As Nietzsche put it in a well-known aphorism, “‘I did that,’ says my memory. ‘I could not have done that,’ says my pride, and remains inexorable. Eventually, the memory yields.” Indeed, truth, and honesty, matter so little to us that we are able to believe, or appear to believe, conflicting ideas simultaneously. Lying seems much less of a paradox, or rather, not a paradox at all, once we realize that the mind does not always operate in a binary fashion, though usually in a self-interested (and often a delusional) one.

Modern comfort and ease obscure the most basic and vital truths. For example, that conflict is a necessary element of life, with the result that discord, both with ourselves and others, is not an exception but the norm in human affairs. Few of us, indeed, consider what is prior to the corruptions in the social order that contains so much suffering and injustice; or in other words, where these ultimately come from. So it happens that many of us are able to believe political evils are simply structural, as if human nature itself were no obstacle. Certainly, however, most critics would behave no better if put in the same circumstances as the powerful people about whom they are so indignant. Let the social critic be able to cut a lucrative illegal deal, give him some inside knowledge others don’t have, then see how quickly his outrage is silenced.

As we take the easy way out—simplifying things and blaming others—many of us nurse an inclination to personal grievance, to the cheapest sort of victimization. As the news shows every day, perpetual outrage—reflecting perpetual self-absorption—characterizes our exceedingly sentimental time. Of course, it, too, is egotistical, and here we can see more of the usual perversity of human nature, that same perversity which makes things that begin in well-meant aims—religions, democracy, socialism, feminism, and so on—to eventually take on a bad shape; turning out to be far worse, in many cases, than that which they set out to oppose. For the underlying egotism of human nature appears to be so extreme that even growth in a good direction will often produce a kind of perverse offshoot, corrupting much (if not all) that was good in the original path. This suggests that we human beings are much less rational and reasonable than we tend to believe—to say nothing of how little just or constant we are.

Living in a society of cheap victimization, in which not we ourselves but others are to blame for everything, we overlook what bad inclinations exist in mankind as a whole, assigning blame to the particular persons who exercise the most power. Again, it is not recognized that whatever evils the powerful do, they ultimately flow from one common evil, that which people contain as the world they embody. But here the proper perspective is painful, and therefore difficult to accept, while conversely, it is comforting to believe things are better than they are. Hence it is that countless people are able to have unrealistic expectations—sure sources of frustration and bitterness—in the political domain. Many liberals, for example, believe that evil is nothing but misguided energy, the result of a wrong-headed course, bad conditioning having led to poor choices and regrettable consequences. There was a lack of outlets or opportunities, etc., etc. But once everyone’s endowment is put in the right conditions, and guided in the right direction—a project for the great big state to engineer—evil will no longer exist. Then, all people will be able to pursue happiness, and know the liberty and equality they deserve.

The error, and naiveté, here lies in the assumption that guiding our endowment properly—or directing human nature, we might say—is simply a matter of implementing the right policies, of designing “society” in a certain way, as if evil were not always necessary to good and vice versa, or as if a world without evil were possible or even intelligible. Certainly, however, it is easy for people to make such a simplistic assumption; after all, in their understanding of politics as it is affected by human nature, they tend not to bear in mind their own history of moral shortcomings, misdeeds and failings. They rather overlook this, and assume that politics consists of persons like themselves, “fundamentally good and decent.” People, in short, are comfortably unaware of their deep inconsistency, of the contradiction between their rosy sense of themselves and their actual conduct in the world. So, when they contemplate politics, they are suddenly shocked by the very corruption which they could have perceived in themselves, had they not habitually employed the mind’s rationalization ability, which is inexhaustible, in order not to know themselves.

There are two more popular errors about evil. The first is that it results only when we fail to recognize the “humanity” of others. In fact, in many instances it is precisely people’s humanity that causes others to want to harm them: believing they have been wronged, angry persons seek revenge. The second is that evil follows from a “failure of communication,” the implication being that good communication would have prevented it. In fact, the world is full of exquisite communicators—writers, for example—who do not find that their special verbal facility makes them any less inclined to mistreat others. Nor is it the case that incompatible values—a perpetual source of conflict all over the world—can be made otherwise through mere deft communication.

All history features evil and cruelty on every page, and yet there are many who insist on blaming the unhappiness of our condition on an external source. If, though, we were more willing to know ourselves, we should learn that within us virtue and vice are often commingled. So, my compassion for my sick mother is related to a resentment acting on the feeling induces in me. My goodwill for my newly promoted friend is bound up with envy. My generosity in picking up a check is not entirely sincere; there’s a feeling of reluctance in it, and behind that, perhaps, some greed. Sometimes an evil intention has a good consequence, and vice versa. The challenges we face in politics—with its inevitable disillusionments—correspond to the complexity of human character, in which things often are not as they seem. But the more we know about ourselves and other people, the more reasonable shall our expectations be in politics and indeed all other domains. And so long as we are disciplined enough to apply the fruits of self-examination, the better we shall live. It is because they do not know themselves, more than any other reason, that so many people end up miserable. For in not knowing themselves, they do not know how to live.

George Orwell noticed that the person who deplores anti-Semitism generally “fails to start his investigation in the one place where he could get some hold of reliable evidence—that is, his own mind.” So it is with the ordinary social critic. He is forever criticizing the next fellow and the social structure, overlooking the fact that it is ultimately the flaws of human beings in general—again, flaws that reflect the nature of the world we embody—that are behind our gravest problems, and which, if he is honest, he can find in himself. Although corruption is most obvious in politics, since there it receives the most attention, it should be assumed that some amount of corruption is everywhere, albeit usually unnoticed, since human beings are adept at concealing it, and since, again, often we don’t want to notice it either.

To understand the complete truth about human institutions, liken them to the family, every one of which knows some amount of corruption, not to be revealed to outsiders, as the popular saying “the family dirty laundry” attests. It is true, as many maintain, that social structures tend to be corrupting. But these are never separate from the primary thing, human nature itself, although they always reflect it. Nor should anyone approach reform without keeping in mind that not just social structures but our nature itself has a way of undermining progress. Once you grasp that bracing reality, you may then ask yourself whether your reform is really worth undertaking. “Given what people are like, what is reasonable to expect from them?” That is the question.

We should expect corruption, lies, betrayal, treachery, and all forms of wickedness. Then, rather than getting exceedingly indignant about such injustice, wasting time with vain words, we should approach it with a fighting spirit, an opposition more of lofty will than of abstract intellect.

When stiff and sore and scarred

 I take away my hand

 From leaning on it hard

 In grass and sand,

 The hurt is not enough:

  I long for weight and strength

 To feel the earth as rough

 To all my length.

                                —Robert Frost

But we must first understand things with as much disinterestedness and nuance as possible. We too often simplify the contexts of things, so that our criticism is worth very little. Usually it is but a hindrance to understanding. To understand the truth about human motives is also to understand just how limited and temporary social progress and reform must be. For the final truth is that in politics we receive a reflection of the evil we already are. In this context our disenchantment is an hypocrisy by which we obscure the primary one, ourselves.

Says Dr. Johnson:

To lay open all the sources from which errour flows in upon him who contemplates his own character, would require more exact knowledge of the human heart, than, perhaps, the most acute and laborious observers have acquired. And since falsehood may be diversified without end, it is not unlikely that every man admits an imposture in some respect peculiar to himself, as his views have been accidentally directed, or his ideas particularly combined. *

We are deep in delusion, each in his own particular way, nor can we fathom all the sources. Still, here is the starting point for a progress beyond laws and policies. What we need to do is to take an unflinching look at how our nature itself creates our problems—how we are own problem—instead of going the easy way and always blaming social structures, “power,” government, and the like. This alone is the way to manly self-reliance, which is certainly preferable to our time’s constant victimhood, aptly described by Steve Sailer as “status climbing through stupidity.” Being prone to self-deception, we must take extra care about our conduct. This will entail having a deeper understanding of the complexity of our characters, those marvels of intricacy. The wise person is marked by greater self-knowledge than others, but also greater perplexity with himself: for, consistently contemplating his life, his own person becomes a source of endlessly puzzling inquiry. The moral will, he learns above all, is more important than the mind, which must be answerable to the self’s honesty and discipline.

When we are blind to our mistakes, we require others, that is, family and friends, to reproach us for them. In such situations, to be sure, many will rebuff their well-intentioned interlocutors, even becoming angry with them: a sign, in most cases, that the reproach is true. Unreachable persons, who make even a little persistence vain, must be left to continue on their way, which may well be doomed. Here, neither pity nor the truth is efficacious.

Exacting self-examination should promote more realistic expectations in politics and life generally. If we are more honest with ourselves, we may understand that we are not trying to change the world but rather, ourselves. “This world is good enough for me,” said William Empson, “if only I can be good enough for it.”

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* Samuel Johnson, “No. 28: the Various Arts of Self-Delusion.”

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  1. You paint a sobering portrait of our nature, corrupted by original sin, inherited to all who are born according to Adam’s nature after the fall into sin. We are delusional, in denial, and unaware that this sin penetrates to the very bottom of our heart, that only God can see and know, and will come to judge. This is the state of the unknown darkness of our soul, blind darkness. We often joke and find it amusing when we recognize our perceived moments of denial that we find ourselves in, thinking this denial is somehow good because how else would we survive. We do confess in our Liturgy, “If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. But, if we confess our sin, God who is faithful and just and will forgive our sin”. How do I know my sin? By His law. How do I know the Salvation He prepared and gives me? When He pronounces to me in His Gospel, that He forgives my sin, Salvation is now for me. This message, He desires all to come to hear.

  2. Thank you for writing and posting. It was personally very helpful and insightful; like a good look in the mirror.

  3. A great & painful essay. Looking in the mirror gets harder as one ages, but is necessary if one hopes to leave his family with a legacy of love. Mr. DeGroot must be a Christian, I can’t believe that he & Anthony Daniels are not, even if the good Doctor claims to be an Atheist. I have not read such soul searching and hopeful writing since last reading Saint Paul. God bless.

  4. I think that even (in the exemplary Jung’s terms) introverted feelers and thinkers — the people who have the chance to discover, enter, explore, and be trapped in, the domains of truth — are driven by how we feel; it is simply that what gives us positive emotions or negative ones is nearly the reverse of what does them.
    It could be seen as an embedded natural handicap, a meager or very low self-deception/deception Quotient (with very different averages by gender, by the way).

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